IF

If loving you means having to be hurt, i'll accept it.
If loving means having to wait a thousand years, i'll wait.
If loving you means having to see you with another girl, i'll bear the pain.
If loving you means having to lose you, i'd wait for you to come running back.
If loving you means having to cry every single night, i''d cry.
If loving you means having to fight for you, i'd fight.

You're right. Things just didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be. Karma has hit me so bad. I was so happy when you came back to me last Sunday. When you apologised. When you realised how much you needed me in your life. When you told me you loved me. But promises are meant to be broken. What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them. I didn't know promises meant so little to you. You promised me time and time again you'd never let us drift apart. You still did. Yes, i hurt you for the past 4 years and it cannot be compared to me now. I chose so many other guys over you. I neglected you, pushed you away from my life. I chose to love others instead of you. Not realising that you're the one who was always there for me, the one who never left. You helped me get together w so many other guys. Yet, you never failed to be there for me whenever i suffer a heartache. But was i ever there for you? No. I miss our closeness. You were one of my bestest friends. & i miss you. I guess this is what i truly deserve.




Love you Justin.