Lego House

#nowplaying - Lego House 

I'm gonna pick up the pieces and build a lego house. If things go wrong, we can knock it down. My three words have two meanings and it's all for you. And it's dark on a cold December, but i've got you to keep me warm.

Edited a few posts because well, i want the memories to be completely erased and well.... yeah. It was a good start to actually getting my heart broken and realizing who's really there for me. I seriously thank God for whoever i have with me now.

The hobbits (Justin, Nicky, Leonard, Ameer, Zhikai, Natsy, Fox,), my girls (Gen, Erica, Lee), Rohit, Fang, Zeline and my godsissy. I'm really thankful for these bunch of people :')

Hey, i really dont know how to talk to you properly right now. I dont know how to look at you like how i used to. I dont know how to actually voice out to you and tell you how i feel anymore, all cause i'm afraid. Dude, i never wanted THESE to happen. Why. This question has been in my head for the past 3 days and i've been asking myself that question. "why after 5 years?" "why now?" "why you?" "why why why". SPARE ME FROM ALL THESE THOUGHTS, PLEASE. I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. I don't wanna feel this way. I wanna go back to how things were when we were the best of friends. Not extra feelings in my heart. What's that i feel in me? JEALOUSY. Yes. i cannot stand how she looks at you, how she sits right in front of us during recess. How she texts you. But silly me, what rights do i have to feel this way. You're not even mine to begin with. I keeps staring at our polaroid, asking myself why i even told you. Why i even let myself fall into  this piece of shit. But, not like i can control it. Dude, why. URGH. 

Till then x